Hello World
Written by emma
Over the past few days I've felt a strong urge to be my true self. Who I was always meant to be. She's been there as long as I can remember, but life in general means I can't be her in the real world. In finding online community however, I realized I've found a place that I can be her. This has been a very positive thing for me, though my heart aches for a day I can be her in my physical space and also be safe, this little push to be my true self online has been so beneficial. I've been happier overall and feel whole for the first time in awhile.
I think one of the things that made this so easy to do is that my online and offline selves are completely separated. I know not everybody can or wants to do that. But when I started using the internet it was a very common way to approach things, and I think that helped greatly as I could change my online self to be who I really was and could find ways to express who I really am online, without putting my safety at risk in the real world.
I know there are so many folks who can not express themselves in the real world, much like myself right now. I would say if you can, find a way to express yourself somewhere online. If you have a community that will accept you for who you really are, try and find a way to be who you've always wanted to be. I'm so overall buzzing with joy and happiness that my small corner of the web I occupy allows me to be my true self. I so much hope that is the case for anyone reading this, because it has been a good first step in getting to where I want to be in terms of who I really am. It has helped relieve some of the pressure I had on myself that was causing stress and anxiety.
I have much to learn, but I know with my whole heart that this is me. With time I will keep finding ways to express myself online, and I know that one day I can be somewhere where I can be my true self offline too. Thank you so much for reading this even if it is a little bit of word soup. The past few days have been emotional to say the least. Whoever you are, and however you are feeling about yourself. You are you, never be ashamed or afraid of that. Be authentically yourself in all the ways you can be!
Later Gator